P2D11 - Lord Help Me Today 169.2

GM,

Today it's raining really hard and its sooooo gloomy. One of those days where you just want to stay in bed and sleep all day. I was afraid to weigh this morning. I just didn't "feel" like I had made any progress. So I dreaded the scale this morning, but i did, and I was right. It didn't budge a bit, not one single ounce. I guess the bright side is, I didn't gain either.

Yesterday was really hectic. Well lunch was great and up until it was time to leave work, I was right on schedule. Unfortunately, I had to make 3 stops. One to my moms to pick up computer equipment to drop off for a friend, and then to the friends to drop it off. Both stops put me behind on taking my hcg and eating :( I also stopped at Walmart to pick up some latex gloves to assure myself that I'm not touching any forbidden oils. I made it home around 9, 3hrs past my 2nd dosage. I was not hungry at all and perhaps the Gurmur pill my friend gave me to try not only destroyed my taste for sugar, but my appetite as well. I forced myself to eat the dinner I had luckily prepared the day before. Chicken and cabbage with the braggs liquid amino. After weighing in this morning I decided to go back to the very first meal I had when I had the success. Shrimp, cucumbers with Apple Cider Vinegar and 1/2 grapefruit with stevia and my melba toast. I did pick up some Mrs. Dash something Lime seasonings.

Although I'm a little sad this morning, I have to commend myself at my ability to stay strong with my urges and temptations. I can't really call them temptations I guess the better word would be "habits". I'm so used to snacking and eating just because I want it, more than I need it but during this time I have been good with being "ok" with not having. To my surprise when I went to Walmart, they added a freezer and food section. This is the first time I've had to shop for the family since starting the program 2wks ago. I still picked up everyone's favorite snacks, dinner foods and beverages (I'm so glad I had that gurmur pill). I didn't crave, drool, wish or dread not being able to have any of the items I bought. Orange cinnamon rolls by Pillsbury are one of my favorites. I placed them in the cart thinking about how my little one and his 2 cousins would bake them this weekend. I'm so glad mentally I'm focused to succeed on this program b/c if I hadn't, Lord only knows where I'd be right now.

There have been a time or two where I was in tears at wanting that chocolate cupcake, snickers or caramel cremes. I actually took my money to the vending machine, walked around the corner and stood there talking myself down from the quick high that would end in guilt and regret. I had tears in my eyes as my mouth watered. But I managed to pull myself together and return to my desk without making a single purchase. I prayed that the feeling would pass. I kept envisioning where I wanted to be in the next two months. The Holiday's are coming and I want to be on phase 3 or 4 at least.

Well, I'm hoping and praying that TOM is the cause of this roller coaster of emotions and lack of loss and not anything that I'm doing to myself. I cannot wait for this day to be over. Its been a while since I've felt this low. I feel myself getting teary so I'm going to end for now. Don't worry, I'll be okay :-) This too shall pass.

P2D10 On the Move :-) 169.2

GM!

Well! I'm happy to report there's been progress! I weighed in this morning at 169.2! I'm thankful b/c today I got a visit from "aunt fran", (that time of the month -TOM) lol. So I'm just happy to see some progress :-) My mood is VERY Happy and not just because of the loss, but throughout this process I have been very lucky not to have experienced low energy, headaches, or any of the other things most ppl have complained about. I was actually pretty worried that perhaps I was doing something wrong. As my coworker explained it to me, it's a period of "detox" so the less you have to rid your body of, the less side affects I should have. I have already had a cup of coffee - black. Although I'm not used to drinking my coffee this way, it's tolerable and it also aids in hunger pangs. Morning snack has been my sliced strawberries with a sprinkle of Stevia. I'm now drinking my second 20oz cup of water for the day. So I'm heading in the right direction! Hoping not to make any more wrong turns! :-) I mixed a new batch of HCG mix. I did it without having to call Sue! I was very proud. The directions were very simple, but now that I've mixed it with her help the first time, this time I knew it was right.

That brings my total loss to -7.8 including loading, and -5.2 since staring the VLCD.

Well, I guess I should do some work. I'll check in later. Enjoy Your Day!! :-)

P2D9 Hopefully This is the Last Day

Hello,

I haven't been blogging the last few days to spare you the meek disposition I've been in. If you remember on Saturday, I found I had been making a few errors with some of the things I came in contact with. According to Dr. Simeons Protocol, it will take about 3 days to correct the error. This is day three and I'm happy to report that at least I haven't gained much. 170.2 is my weight for today and the last 2 days. Before the error I was at 169.6. I have continued eating right and calculating my calories.

I'm a fighter and I will Win this Battle! ;-) Hoping for a better tomorrow! (pray for me) :-)

Oh, I will be mixing a new batch of HCG tonight. Maybe a fresh start all the way around will jump start this engine. Patience is a Virtue and I've learned to exercise it very well.

I have been getting more creative with my meals :) My new love is Bragg's Liquid Amino, like the Frank's Hot Sauce commercial, "I put that***** on everything!!" lol I grilled chicken with Mrs. Dash original seasonings and steamed some cabbage with salt and pepper. Combined the two and drizzled some BLA in the mix and you couldn't tell me I wasn't eating Chinese Food! It was Delicious! So much that my whole family asked for it tonight. Another one that they all loved is the Steamed Shrimp with Asparagus and the BLA with other seasonings (non containing sugar) I slave to fix their meals while being extra careful not to come into contact with any foods or oils that could hinder my success, and they all drool over MY food! lol So perhaps this will make the "meal cooking" process a little easier for me. Not to mention healthy for them. So it's a WIN-WIN situation!

Well, on to more reading, socializing with the hcgdieters group and crossing my fingers for PROGRESS tomorrow!!

CYA in the AM! :)

Lunch Talapia (93 cal), apple (59 cal) cucumbers (12 cal), bread (23 cal)
Snack (apple 53 cal)
Dinner Chicken (109 cal), cabbage (79 cal)
No bread Total for the day 428, that's low! I may eat the bread later tonight and I weighed the cabbage but I didn't even eat it all. I had soooo much water today I totally lost count, but I do know that I had at least 6-20oz cups and 3 coffee mugs of green tea. So I'm good in the liquid dept. Lord PLEASE let the scale show a lost tomorrow :)

P2D8 Still Holding

Not much to say. Scale says 170.3

Lunch fish (97 cal), cabbage (49 cal), apple (58 cal), bread (23 cal) Total - 227
Dinner Chicken (110 cal), cabbage (21), apple (54) Total - 185 (Total for the day 412)

I guess I'm paying the price for the errors. I'm smiling b/c some were so dumb. I used a conditioner in my hair that could feed a small African village. After I applied it I screamed because as my head was in the sink, I could see the label and it had every food oil you could think of. I washed it twice and found another conditioner without the oils. I guess we'll see how long it takes for my body to rid itself of the "food". :(

P2D6 Trying to be Patient

Well after talking to Sue and a few "newbies" on the hcgdieters page, Coconut oil was the culprit. As of the day before yesterday, I stopped all coconut oil. Apparently all food oils should be avoided. Which means oil my body can accept/abosorb as FOOD. Coconut, Olive, aloe and palm oils are all food oils. My body will aborb it as food and prevent me from losing fat.

I weighed in this morning at the same 169.6. Perhaps my body needs time to expel the oil that I absorbed. I'm hoping for a better tomorrow.

Today's Breakfast
1/2 grapefruit 86 calories w/stevia
green tea w/stevia
melba toast 23

I think I'm going to pass on the apples for a minute, too. I'll revisit my menu from the first two days.

Time to start the day :-) I'll check in tomorrow.

P2D5 Houston....We Have a Problem!

Okay! Something is going wrong. Well in all honesty, I can think of a few things it may be. I've gained .2 oz as of this morning. I'm weighing in at 169.9. Now, it could be that I only ate 178 calories for dinner for a total of 411 calories for the day. I also have been using cocoa butter and coconut oil on my skin. I haven't been able to find what is acceptable to use as a moisturizer. I have to use something. After yesterday and this morning results, I haven't use anything on my skin but that can't last for long. I do not touch food oils (butter or any other) b/c I do use latex gloves while preparing meals for my family. As a matter of fact, I've only had to cook for them twice this week.

I also think I'm going to go back to green tea instead of coffee although I only put stevia in my coffee. Green tea is said to speed up the metabolism, so I think it may help. I'm not sure but I want to get back on track. Another thing it could be is lack of water. I didn't measure my intake but I need to drink more for sure. I can always tell by how often I go to the bathroom, and I think it was about 3 times. The time when I had the biggest loss it was allllllll day! lol I lost count.

So I need to improve: Water Intake, Getting as close to 500 calories as possible, NO CREAMS, LOTIONS, MOISTURIZERS until I can find one that I KNOW is approved. I need to also do better at taking the hcg as close to the 12 hrs as possible. I take it before 6am because I leave for work no later than 6:30. Sometimes I don't make it home until 7-730 or 8 :( I'm thinking of buying a little cooler to keep in the car or something. There's gotta be a better way to keep the schedule.

Oh well. I'm feeling a little disappointed, but I also realize that's its still early in the game. There's time to adjust and still win. I take responsibility in knowing I may have contributed to the gain today. I will adjust and see what happens :)

P2D4 :(

I think not drinking enough water and also not eating enough yesterday may have contributed to this....169.4. That's only .5! I'm not surprised and trying to force that last grapefruit at 10pm, I'm sure didn't help.

Well, I'm not going to beat myself up. I just have to be more focused on what I eat, drink and touch. I have to find some products I can use on my skin. I know I used cocoa butter the last few days, perhaps that's catching up with me. Today I bought some Organic Coconut oil from a holistic store. I need to use something on my skin because its so dry and I can also use this on my hair.

Today's lunch was grilled chicken (110), cucumbers (31), 1/2 grapefruit(79) and 1 melba toast (23). Total (243)

I'm not sure what I'm going to have for dinner. No worries, everything's prepped and marked. just a matter of choosing :-) Oh, I also picked up the braggs liquid amino. I may do the stir fry with asparagus. I'm excited to try it.

I'll check in later :)