P2D11 - Lord Help Me Today 169.2

GM,

Today it's raining really hard and its sooooo gloomy. One of those days where you just want to stay in bed and sleep all day. I was afraid to weigh this morning. I just didn't "feel" like I had made any progress. So I dreaded the scale this morning, but i did, and I was right. It didn't budge a bit, not one single ounce. I guess the bright side is, I didn't gain either.

Yesterday was really hectic. Well lunch was great and up until it was time to leave work, I was right on schedule. Unfortunately, I had to make 3 stops. One to my moms to pick up computer equipment to drop off for a friend, and then to the friends to drop it off. Both stops put me behind on taking my hcg and eating :( I also stopped at Walmart to pick up some latex gloves to assure myself that I'm not touching any forbidden oils. I made it home around 9, 3hrs past my 2nd dosage. I was not hungry at all and perhaps the Gurmur pill my friend gave me to try not only destroyed my taste for sugar, but my appetite as well. I forced myself to eat the dinner I had luckily prepared the day before. Chicken and cabbage with the braggs liquid amino. After weighing in this morning I decided to go back to the very first meal I had when I had the success. Shrimp, cucumbers with Apple Cider Vinegar and 1/2 grapefruit with stevia and my melba toast. I did pick up some Mrs. Dash something Lime seasonings.

Although I'm a little sad this morning, I have to commend myself at my ability to stay strong with my urges and temptations. I can't really call them temptations I guess the better word would be "habits". I'm so used to snacking and eating just because I want it, more than I need it but during this time I have been good with being "ok" with not having. To my surprise when I went to Walmart, they added a freezer and food section. This is the first time I've had to shop for the family since starting the program 2wks ago. I still picked up everyone's favorite snacks, dinner foods and beverages (I'm so glad I had that gurmur pill). I didn't crave, drool, wish or dread not being able to have any of the items I bought. Orange cinnamon rolls by Pillsbury are one of my favorites. I placed them in the cart thinking about how my little one and his 2 cousins would bake them this weekend. I'm so glad mentally I'm focused to succeed on this program b/c if I hadn't, Lord only knows where I'd be right now.

There have been a time or two where I was in tears at wanting that chocolate cupcake, snickers or caramel cremes. I actually took my money to the vending machine, walked around the corner and stood there talking myself down from the quick high that would end in guilt and regret. I had tears in my eyes as my mouth watered. But I managed to pull myself together and return to my desk without making a single purchase. I prayed that the feeling would pass. I kept envisioning where I wanted to be in the next two months. The Holiday's are coming and I want to be on phase 3 or 4 at least.

Well, I'm hoping and praying that TOM is the cause of this roller coaster of emotions and lack of loss and not anything that I'm doing to myself. I cannot wait for this day to be over. Its been a while since I've felt this low. I feel myself getting teary so I'm going to end for now. Don't worry, I'll be okay :-) This too shall pass.

P2D10 On the Move :-) 169.2

GM!

Well! I'm happy to report there's been progress! I weighed in this morning at 169.2! I'm thankful b/c today I got a visit from "aunt fran", (that time of the month -TOM) lol. So I'm just happy to see some progress :-) My mood is VERY Happy and not just because of the loss, but throughout this process I have been very lucky not to have experienced low energy, headaches, or any of the other things most ppl have complained about. I was actually pretty worried that perhaps I was doing something wrong. As my coworker explained it to me, it's a period of "detox" so the less you have to rid your body of, the less side affects I should have. I have already had a cup of coffee - black. Although I'm not used to drinking my coffee this way, it's tolerable and it also aids in hunger pangs. Morning snack has been my sliced strawberries with a sprinkle of Stevia. I'm now drinking my second 20oz cup of water for the day. So I'm heading in the right direction! Hoping not to make any more wrong turns! :-) I mixed a new batch of HCG mix. I did it without having to call Sue! I was very proud. The directions were very simple, but now that I've mixed it with her help the first time, this time I knew it was right.

That brings my total loss to -7.8 including loading, and -5.2 since staring the VLCD.

Well, I guess I should do some work. I'll check in later. Enjoy Your Day!! :-)

P2D9 Hopefully This is the Last Day

Hello,

I haven't been blogging the last few days to spare you the meek disposition I've been in. If you remember on Saturday, I found I had been making a few errors with some of the things I came in contact with. According to Dr. Simeons Protocol, it will take about 3 days to correct the error. This is day three and I'm happy to report that at least I haven't gained much. 170.2 is my weight for today and the last 2 days. Before the error I was at 169.6. I have continued eating right and calculating my calories.

I'm a fighter and I will Win this Battle! ;-) Hoping for a better tomorrow! (pray for me) :-)

Oh, I will be mixing a new batch of HCG tonight. Maybe a fresh start all the way around will jump start this engine. Patience is a Virtue and I've learned to exercise it very well.

I have been getting more creative with my meals :) My new love is Bragg's Liquid Amino, like the Frank's Hot Sauce commercial, "I put that***** on everything!!" lol I grilled chicken with Mrs. Dash original seasonings and steamed some cabbage with salt and pepper. Combined the two and drizzled some BLA in the mix and you couldn't tell me I wasn't eating Chinese Food! It was Delicious! So much that my whole family asked for it tonight. Another one that they all loved is the Steamed Shrimp with Asparagus and the BLA with other seasonings (non containing sugar) I slave to fix their meals while being extra careful not to come into contact with any foods or oils that could hinder my success, and they all drool over MY food! lol So perhaps this will make the "meal cooking" process a little easier for me. Not to mention healthy for them. So it's a WIN-WIN situation!

Well, on to more reading, socializing with the hcgdieters group and crossing my fingers for PROGRESS tomorrow!!

CYA in the AM! :)

Lunch Talapia (93 cal), apple (59 cal) cucumbers (12 cal), bread (23 cal)
Snack (apple 53 cal)
Dinner Chicken (109 cal), cabbage (79 cal)
No bread Total for the day 428, that's low! I may eat the bread later tonight and I weighed the cabbage but I didn't even eat it all. I had soooo much water today I totally lost count, but I do know that I had at least 6-20oz cups and 3 coffee mugs of green tea. So I'm good in the liquid dept. Lord PLEASE let the scale show a lost tomorrow :)

P2D8 Still Holding

Not much to say. Scale says 170.3

Lunch fish (97 cal), cabbage (49 cal), apple (58 cal), bread (23 cal) Total - 227
Dinner Chicken (110 cal), cabbage (21), apple (54) Total - 185 (Total for the day 412)

I guess I'm paying the price for the errors. I'm smiling b/c some were so dumb. I used a conditioner in my hair that could feed a small African village. After I applied it I screamed because as my head was in the sink, I could see the label and it had every food oil you could think of. I washed it twice and found another conditioner without the oils. I guess we'll see how long it takes for my body to rid itself of the "food". :(

P2D6 Trying to be Patient

Well after talking to Sue and a few "newbies" on the hcgdieters page, Coconut oil was the culprit. As of the day before yesterday, I stopped all coconut oil. Apparently all food oils should be avoided. Which means oil my body can accept/abosorb as FOOD. Coconut, Olive, aloe and palm oils are all food oils. My body will aborb it as food and prevent me from losing fat.

I weighed in this morning at the same 169.6. Perhaps my body needs time to expel the oil that I absorbed. I'm hoping for a better tomorrow.

Today's Breakfast
1/2 grapefruit 86 calories w/stevia
green tea w/stevia
melba toast 23

I think I'm going to pass on the apples for a minute, too. I'll revisit my menu from the first two days.

Time to start the day :-) I'll check in tomorrow.

P2D5 Houston....We Have a Problem!

Okay! Something is going wrong. Well in all honesty, I can think of a few things it may be. I've gained .2 oz as of this morning. I'm weighing in at 169.9. Now, it could be that I only ate 178 calories for dinner for a total of 411 calories for the day. I also have been using cocoa butter and coconut oil on my skin. I haven't been able to find what is acceptable to use as a moisturizer. I have to use something. After yesterday and this morning results, I haven't use anything on my skin but that can't last for long. I do not touch food oils (butter or any other) b/c I do use latex gloves while preparing meals for my family. As a matter of fact, I've only had to cook for them twice this week.

I also think I'm going to go back to green tea instead of coffee although I only put stevia in my coffee. Green tea is said to speed up the metabolism, so I think it may help. I'm not sure but I want to get back on track. Another thing it could be is lack of water. I didn't measure my intake but I need to drink more for sure. I can always tell by how often I go to the bathroom, and I think it was about 3 times. The time when I had the biggest loss it was allllllll day! lol I lost count.

So I need to improve: Water Intake, Getting as close to 500 calories as possible, NO CREAMS, LOTIONS, MOISTURIZERS until I can find one that I KNOW is approved. I need to also do better at taking the hcg as close to the 12 hrs as possible. I take it before 6am because I leave for work no later than 6:30. Sometimes I don't make it home until 7-730 or 8 :( I'm thinking of buying a little cooler to keep in the car or something. There's gotta be a better way to keep the schedule.

Oh well. I'm feeling a little disappointed, but I also realize that's its still early in the game. There's time to adjust and still win. I take responsibility in knowing I may have contributed to the gain today. I will adjust and see what happens :)

P2D4 :(

I think not drinking enough water and also not eating enough yesterday may have contributed to this....169.4. That's only .5! I'm not surprised and trying to force that last grapefruit at 10pm, I'm sure didn't help.

Well, I'm not going to beat myself up. I just have to be more focused on what I eat, drink and touch. I have to find some products I can use on my skin. I know I used cocoa butter the last few days, perhaps that's catching up with me. Today I bought some Organic Coconut oil from a holistic store. I need to use something on my skin because its so dry and I can also use this on my hair.

Today's lunch was grilled chicken (110), cucumbers (31), 1/2 grapefruit(79) and 1 melba toast (23). Total (243)

I'm not sure what I'm going to have for dinner. No worries, everything's prepped and marked. just a matter of choosing :-) Oh, I also picked up the braggs liquid amino. I may do the stir fry with asparagus. I'm excited to try it.

I'll check in later :)

P2D3 Evening

Hello :)

I just finished eating dinner and while doing so, I started thinking that this isn't so bad after all. Its almost a little scary because besides the every now and then hunger pangs, I feel pretty normal. I say that because I know that this is partly a detox of all of the bad things I've been putting in my body over the years. Its been said that when you detox, you have some headaches, and some discomfort in one way or another. I've been lucky so far to not have experienced any. To help with the hunger pains, I eat my fruit for the meal as a snack. Its been holding me pretty well :-) One thing that concerns me today is my water intake. I didn't drink nearly as much water as I did yesterday nor as required. By 4:00pm I started trying to make up for it. I hope it doesn't hurt me tomorrow with weighing in.

Dinner was pretty typical although I did see an EXCELLENT recipe that I want to try. It has one of my, well two of my favorite items, SHRIMP & Braggs Liquid Amino!! It's an aparagus stir fry with those two things and it includes 2 cloves of garlic and fresh ginger with a few squirts of lemon! Mmmmmm! Unfortunately my grocer does not carry the Amino. It taste JUST like Soy Sauce but it's Natural and so much more healthy for you. I will pick it up on the way home tomorrow.

I had shrimp and asparagus, steamed with water and seasoned with Mrs. Dash Original seasonings and my favorite, organic CAYENNE PEPPER !! My Mouth is on fire! I found that I can eat anything if it's buried in cayenne pepper. I'm full just off of that but I still have to eat the 1/2 grapefruit. I'll eat that in about 3o min.

Total Calories for the day 439. Wow, I think I need to eat more veggies to get closer to 500. At least above 450. I didn't eat as much cucumbers as I usually do and I ate an apple instead of the normal grapefruit.

Breakfast was water and black coffee once I arrived at work. Lunch - Talipia, apple, melba toast and cucumbers.

I'm a little nevous about weighing in tomorrow. Calorie intake and water may pose a problem.

Oh, one thing that concerns me is my throat. Not sure if this has anything to do with the program but when I swallow it feels sorta bruised. Not like a sore throat but where the esophagus is. If I touch the outside (around where a man's adam's apple is) it hurt like a bruise but it's inside too. Never had a problem like this before, but I'm not concerned that anything's wrong, just wondering what's going on. Anywho, time to call it a night.

Pray for me :-)

P2D3 Morning

Good Morning,

I'm just checking in before work. I have to admit when I awoke this morning I was a little nervous. Wondering if I ate right, came into contact with any prohibited oils, and probably every other little thing I could think of. Well, if I did, the scale hid it from me. I weighed in at 170.0 even! That's 1.9lbs loss since yesterday and 4.4 total loss :-) Slow and Steady Wins the Race. I'll check in later. Have a Great Day!

P2D2

Today is P2D2 of the VLCD. I took my .5cc's at 6am. (i know that's a 1/2 hour earlier than yesterday but I had to get out the door for work) I was told its not tooooo much of a big deal being "exactly 12 hrs" when dosing. I try to keep it as close as possible.

Well enough of babbling, I know what your asking me, "did you lose any weight?" Well, actually I did!! lol I weighed in this morning at 171.9! That's 2.5 pounds loss so far! There's that phrase again, "so far" lol, the only good thing this time, is that we're going in the OPPOSITE direction!! I know this may sound weird but I when I awoke this morning, even before I got out of the bed, I "felt lighter" Normally I'm a little puffy or swollen, but I can't explain it, my body just felt a little different. I was very anxious to get on the scale. I had to wait until my hubby left for work. *Shhhhh, he doesn't know about my "diet"* Well as a matter of fact I didn't tell anyone. Even though I know he'd support me. Sometimes it's just easier for me to do it alone. I've always been like that. I can exercise alone, shop alone, go to the movies and out to dinner with Me, Myself and I. If he ask me, I'll tell him, but no need in going into it right now. As a matter of fact, I didn't tell anyone. Well except Sue. :-) I'm sure you understand why. "You can't lose weight that way, you'll starve to death", "losing weight that fast is unhealthy and you'll gain it back TWICE as fast". In reality, they'd think I'm crazy. I didn't want the negative comments and unresearched opinions. So I figured once they see how FABULOUS I look, I may share my secret. Well, I just saw the lights turn off around the house, lol I guess that means it's bedtime. But before I go, here's today's menu:

B-Black Coffee
about an hour later 1tsp of L-Glutamine to help with hunger/cravings. I dissolved the powder under my tongue, the same way I take the sublingual mix. It helped for a minute, lol.

Morning Snack (i was a little hungry) the melba toast (23 cal)

L- Talapia 110g (110 cal)
1/2 grapefruit (84 cal)
cucumbers (25 cal)
and 50oz of water before noon!!! I'm so proud of myself!
Total - 242 Calories

D- Shrimp (104 cal)
apple (58 cal)
melba toast (23 cal)
veggie..(0 cal)
Total -165

I had cucumbers set aside for dinner, but I didn't eat them b/c I was not hungry. I hope this doesn't hurt me. geesh.

Total for the day 407 cal. I hope this doesn't hurt me. I know you have to eat to lose weight but I couldn't eat anything else. Maybe it's because of all the water I've been drinking. Over 70oz of water! I hope that's a good thing. See you in the morning :-)

P2D1

I think the 4th day of loading helped. I gained weight and now my official FAT Girl weight is....*drum roll*...... 174.4!!!!! Still not my biggest but definitely Miserable enough to qualify for one of the most miserable feelings in a long time. I decided that with all the other health issues going on, anxious and just a little stressed, that I would do my first day on the VLCD from home. I used this day to clean, weigh, label and store all of my meats, fish, shrimp and veggies. I'm not a fan of chicken but just to keep variety on such a short list of foods, I purchased chicken tenderloins and cleaned them as well. I have never been so organized and focused in ANYTHING in life! The food scale by Perfect Portions really made it simple. I wasn't sure of it's accuracy so I took a picture of the cucumbers I was weighing, texted it along with the numbers from the scale, to my old faithful Sue! She answered right back saying that what I had was correct and that I was doing a great job! I smiled, thanked her then confessed, "I cheated. I had help with my scale". However you do it, just be sure the numbers are right. So today's meal was as follows:

B- Coffee Black
L- Talapia 89g (88 cal)
Asparagus (34 cal)
1/2 Grapefruit (78 cal)
Melba Toast (23 cal) Unsalted
I drank club soda (10oz) and 64oz of water.
Total - 223 Calories

D-100g of shrimp (106 cal)
1/2 gf (73 cal)
Cucumbers (22 cal)
Melba Toast (23 cal)
Total - 224 Calories

Grand Total 447 Calories!

I also should add, I wasn't hungry and I felt much better than I did trying to start the day before. I was told to eat GOOD FATS! Not too much sugar. Today went so smooth, I'm actually a little nervous!

4th Day of Loading

Yes!!! You saw it right, Day4! I started taking my HCG twice a day yet I seemed to have lost a few pounds while loading. My plan was to load for 3 days. After all I had a full weekend with Friday's Girls Night Out, a Wedding on Saturday (seafood after that) and Sunday Football! But when starting the First day of P2, I felt starved and dizzy :( I thought perhaps I didn't load on the right foods. I had been eating a lot of pasta with alfredo, seafood, salmon, bread, fried shrimp, McDonald's Steak and Egg and Cheese Bagels and so much chocolate ice cream that I deemed my self a Cow! So by noon on the first day on P2 I decided one more day. I went out and bought Popeye's Chicken, biscuits and mac n cheese. I just wasn't hungry, but every time I thought I had more room, I'd eat another piece of chicken and a biscuit! I have to say loading is not easy! I know that sounds crazy but perhaps the hcg played a part in it.

Its Time To EAT!!

YAYYYY! I can eat ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING I'VE EVER WANTED TO EAT!!! I will be socializing all weekend centered around FOOD, so what better time to LOAD! Loading is when you eat as much High Caloric/Fat Foods you can get your hands on. This will help you during your VLCD (very low calorie diet) The Low Calorie day starts the day after you stop loading and then start your 500 calorie a day diet. I went out a purchased chocolate ice cream, cookies and dough ice cream and I've been dreaming of eating my favorite, Hostess Chocolate Cup Cake!! (do you see the pattern?) I love chocolate and what better way to get FAT!

Okay, so now it's time to dose. I decided to take my first dose at 6:30am and my second dose at 6:30pm. I used the little syringe to measure out .5cc's of mix. I aimed for the spot directly under my tongue and held it there for 10min! Yup 10! I read 5min was required, but I've also read a blogger that held hers for 15! I didn't have a taste but after I swallowed, I started frowning and wondering "am I drinking the urine of a pregnant woman?" lol I know, sometimes I am just so silly.

For some reason I just wasn't hungry :(

Mixing Day!

Today is Mixing Day! I cleaned my work area, laid out all of my supplies and then called Sue!! LOL.. there was NO WAY I was gonna mess this up! I was a nervous wreck! I know I asked her a million and one questions on how to read the syringe! In fairness to me, most people seemed to have the same anxiety the first time. Well I think I did it right :) She told me the one 5000 i.u HCG ampoule mixed with the bacterostatic sodium chloride would make enough mixture to last 15days. After mixing it and looking into the little brown bottle, I was thinking "there's no way this is going to last 15days". Well starting tomorrow, we will see.

All supplies have been ordered. I got my HCG Kit from www.emergewithhcg.com. (all the things I would need in order to mix the hcg). I ended up ordering the Sublingual 60 day protocol w/Bacteriostatic Sodium Chloride from AllDayChemist.com, 5000, i.u and I ordered 5 vials.

Now if knowing the correct way to mix this concoction wasn't pressure enough, measuring my food with accuracy was worrying me the most. After all, if I don't eat the correct amount of calories, progress will not be made.

To alleviate some of the stress and errors, lol, I decided it was worth it to purchase a scale that would do all the work for me. I found a life saver!! Its a digital scale by Perfect Portions and it's a Food Scale + Nutritional Facts!! OH MY GOODNESS! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! It not only weighs your food for you in grams, but it also calculates calories, fat calories, total fat, saturated fat, cholesterol, sodium, total carbs, dietary fiber, sugars and protein!!! All you have to do is put in the code provided by the Food Code Book that come with it! It take out all guess work!

Well I decided I may as well go all the way with the last part of this formula for success. I purchased a digital scale by Weight Watchers. It measures weight in increments of .1 and also your Body Fat%, Body Water, Bone Mass and BMI. I guess it wouldn't be fair NOT to disclose that I also have a problem with shopping and overdoing it every time. Hey, that's a woman for ya! lol

For days I've been trying to read all of the literature and I think, I'm just afraid to start overall. Not afraid of the challenge but afraid of not being prepared and failing :( I think I need to call my friend :)

I'm so glad I called her, she was able to assure me that I could do it! Not only that I could do it, but she would be there to support me and answer whatever questions I had. That made me feel excited to try again. You know how sometimes you feel like you may be "bothering" someone with all of your questions and questions and MORE questions? lol, well she said, ask away, she don't mind at all. Thank You!!

So I finally ordered my HCG with the help of my friend! YAYYYY! My stomach is hangin over my pants and I can barely sit up straight to type this, smh. So I know it's past time to make a change. I weighed in at my drs office this morning @ 177lbs. What the HECK! (lol remember I said "so far?") Wow, this is sad., but it's cool, it's only temporary ;-)

Per Sue's blog, I need to be prepared with Potassium supplements for energy. These supplements I can take 1-3xper day and L-Glutamine for hunger/cravings. All you have to do is dissolve an opened capsule under your tongue. (no need to open capsule, I found the L-Glutamine in powder form)

Now, we wait :)